I have always loved Christmas. Not Chinese New Year, not really my birthday, not any other holiday. But Christmas. I don't know why... I have just always loved it and words aren't really going to explain why. Maybe it's because of the love and the family gatherings. Maybe because it's a celebration of Jesus' birthday. Maybe because of both. I have always found it different and special than other occasions.
Somehow, it's different this year. Christmas, I mean. Usually on Christmas' Eve, we'd have a family gathering with turkey and mashed potatoes, curry, lasagne, egg salad etc. We would all gather at the living room after the Christmas' Eve dinner then maybe do some carolling among ourselves then we would open presents! Then after, the adults would just gather there talking among themselves about adult stuff and we kids would go off outside and play or talk among ourselves too. Just pure fun family time.
Unfortunately, this year its different. The Christmas tree is no where to be seen. The decorations aren't hung up around the house. There isn't the smell of delicious Christmas food coming from the kitchen. The house is so quiet this year you could hear a pin drop. With grandma and my aunt being away in Melbourne this year, there isn't even a little get together with nice yummy food. I don't have the Christmas spirit this year. Its just no where to be found.
This year's Christmas is only dad, mom, my brother and I being home. No special dinner. No carolling. No presents. Only went out to Hills for taro balls and grass jelly. But not the whole little family. My brother is addicted to his laptop and his games its silly. He coops himself up in his room the whole day and sometimes even manages to survive without breakfast or lunch. His addiction is getting worse and we can't even get him out of his room unless it's to buy more pc games. So, it was only dad, mom and I who went out for dessert just now. I got sick this Christmas... I have a cold and it sucks so bad I have no words for it. Currently just sitting here wrapped up in warm jackets and blankets while typing out this post with this heavy head and runny nose.
Nothing special this year. I can only hope for a better Christmas next year. I miss the past Christmases.
,xx
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