Umm, so like, hi...

Hello! It's been like a month since I've blogged! I'm super sorry... Exams were in the way and I had to put away my laptop to encourage me to study(but fyi I still had my phone so...). I tried using my phone to blog but...it won't work!!

EXAMS ARE DONE WITH FOR THIS SEMESTER!!!!! Can you not tell how super happy and excited I am?!?!?!?! 2 weeks of holidays and it starts today! So basically my holidays are packed(and this is like really rare because I am a loser who usually does nothing at home during holidays). I have like one week to myself but I'll have to use that week to complete bio assignments and hopefully do some add maths! I really NEED to improve my add maths. It's one of my weakest subjects ughhh I just cannot seem to get it. Its so confusing and mind fucking. And don't get me started on my bio assignment... I just hate teacher for making us do this because umm I don't know if you're stupid or just plain dumb but holidays are for relaxing? I think I didn't do my best this exam because I didn't have enough time to prepare :( I'm actually pretty worried for my results this time because parent teacher meetings are soon and my annoying as form teacher might nag about it(and by nag I actually mean nag, with the annoying nagging voice some more).

But on the second week of holidays... I'll be heading to Sabah for Leo Forum!!!!! Super super ecstatic to the max! I'll be going with friends(Jordan and Ivy) and we'll be all tourist-like hehehehehe. Best part of it? No adults! Well no teachers that is...I'm pretty sure there are gonna be adults there. We have so many things planned for Sabah oh my god you do not even understand my excitableness. Though... there's gonna be two dinners in which we have to dress up formally... I for one, am not a fan of dresses. But we have to wear a party dress so right now my biggest problem is to find two party dresses(which fits my taste and is decent). I'm like freaking out because I don't know where to get decent party dresses?!?!?!?! And not to mention I don't have shoes to go with them! I wonder if they'll mind me showing up in converses...

Okay so teacher's day celebrations for school level are today. And I was supposed to be there by 6am in the fucking morning for prefect duty. It isn't gonna be fun because the dewan(that we cleaned with all our hard work and sweat yesterday afternoon, in which we stayed back till 4pm for) got mud attacked(yes I mean that literally) and we are supposed to clean it up by this morning before celebrations and performances start.  Guess what? I woke up sick with fever and a bloody sore throat. Fyi, it hurts like fuck and I cannot speak. All that comes out of my mouth when I open it and try to talk is, hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I am having such a hard time communicating verbally right now...

Stuff to look forward to this holiday:

• SABAH
• Movie marathon with Ivy and Xinjie(and a few other people)
• Mall trips
• finishing off hunger games
• blogging
• tumblr
• twitter

(wow I have no life)

So, personally I am having a rough time with well umm, personal stuff which I will talk about in another post some other time. Right now I plan to just sit back with my bottle of water(because I cannot eat or drink anything else :<) and maybe watch some dvds on my laptop while my glee episodes are downloading. This annoyingly slow internet speed is getting on my nerves... Or I might just overhaul my blog again because I can never be satisfied with one design(yes I am very indecisive over things).

Okay well till I get on, bye!

,xx

Typical Saturday with a twist

Heavy eyes now but shall update you guys abit about my day :)

We had school activities today so I woke up really early...I slept at around 2am maybe yesterday(which was a bad idea) and woke up at around 6-ish in the am. Was supposed to go for swimming but Ivy wasn't going and I had my period still so we skipped and went straight to school. Met up with Xinjie and Ivy and headed to Leo for the weekly meeting but no one was in the room so we left and went to find Pris to see if she needed help for the school mag. I could tell she was really stressed out over it :( I honestly wanted to help but I didn't know what to help with... I felt so bad!

Leo was kinda boring so we left again and went to check up on Pris to see if she was still sane. Today was pretty hot so I was sweating all over ughhh I hate sweating when I'm not supposed to! It's so annoying and makes you feel sticky and icky ewww

Sent Ivy off then Xinjie and I went to hills to get her special someone's present! I have to say the present is pretty cool heh. It's like this iPhone casing that got splashed with droplets of water? Yeah guess you could say it like that. I was craving for guavas and sweet corn juice so we went over to Parkson to get them! After the long wait, I finally satisfied my cravings yum! You guys should try the sweet corn juice. It's A+!!! They blend sweet corn and some milk and some other stuff which I'm not sure of but its goooood. Xinjie suddenly had her cravings for some Oreo McFlurry so we walked down to McDonald's to get some but just her luck, they didn't have it today! She was kinda bummed so we ordered a set instead for her lunch. Maybe ours... because I ate half of her french fries.

That's Xinjie's lunch for you.

I wasn't planning on eating anything for lunch but oh well... because we were gonna go to Fullhouse at Hills during the night for Bev's early birthday dinner. 

When I went home I was actually supposed to study, which I did but it only lasted for an hour(I am honestly freaking out because exams are week after next and I haven't started!!!!!!!)(Stupid school who had to make us all suffer by pushing the exams a week earlier than planned) Speaking of exams, this one's gonna last for two weeks. TWO FUCKING WEEKS UGHH. And they wonder why students nowadays go mental... Ok anyway, I slept the afternoon off because I was just so tired(this is what happens when you know there is school but still sleep late). 

Woke up at around 6pm which is later than planned and had to rush off to exercise before heading to Fullhouse. I need to exercise ok. I don't care if I'm gonna be late because if I don't exercise or sweat my butt off, I'll feel guilty and fat then I'll  probs beat myself up from the insides for not sticking to plan...(yes I am a health conscious freak. Cue all the critics) I don't see it as a bad thing because it kinda motivates me to push myself further and get healthier. Exercising always makes me feel better for some sick reason. It helps me to clear my mind and stuff like that.

When I got back it was already like 7pm(the dinner was supposed to start at 6.30)(oh well forever late because of my health conscience). I rushed like a mad man on rampage to get ready. I was pretty proud for being able to reach there at around 7.30 ish. Which proves I'm getting better at procrastinating yay(no guys do not follow in my footsteps. trust me. getting burned by your hairdryer and knocking into beds and table along the way is not cool unless if you think bruises are cool then ok why not) I actually reached the place in time but I was literally shaking(i couldn't even text properly lol) I don't really know why... Maybe because I was in such a hurry and all my adrenaline went up? Ya ok not too sure myself.

Fullhouse was ok I guess. It was my first time being there but omfg the food is so expensive I cannot even... I ordered the club sandwich and it costs me RM13.90. The portion was small... Managed to finish most of it though except 1/4 of it hehehehe I also had a banana milkshake. It was bleeeergh because the after taste tasted like panadol. I hate panadol... But all in all it was ok. I like the layout of the place. Makes you have this tea party vibe yeaaah buddy 

Credits to Bev for this photo! Stole it from her Instagram because mine didn't have 3G plus I did not take any photos :( From left: Me, Ivy, Angelina and Bev!

Truth be told, I didn't actually want to go because exams were coming and I am freaking out big time. But then after all it was Bev's early birthday dinner so I went for her yay

(But my secret motivation was this)

I saw hot guys and there was good food so yes I am happy.

*SHOUT OUT TO MORGANE because she tweeted me and asked me to write about her so here goes... Hi~~~~~~~ I'm so sorry for not being able to write a good ghost story. I keep having writer's block! I promise when inspirations hits I'll write you one hahahahaha And it's been so long since I've seen you!!!!!!! Hoping to see you more often. Maybe send you some hand written letters through Xinjie cos I'm romantic like that hehehehe

Ok I guess that's it for now. Till the next time!(which will probably be after exams? or maybe during the break period of exams) Oh and I might not be blogging for 5 days during the 2nd week of June holidays because I'll be at Leo forum...I might blog if there is internet connection and hopefully a laptop though!

,xxx

School Day

I know you're gonna be like omfg what?!?!?!?! Did she just titled her post School Day on a Saturday?!?!?!?! Yes? No. Okay well that's good. Um so yeah today was a school day. I guess they decided to replace an actual school day so that we'll have holidays that day... OK I made myself confused as well...

Moving on...

So hi! I just got back from a useless day at school(I'm not joking man. It really was pointless...We only had like a few lessons during the 6 periods there.). Prefect duty was so-so I guess. I don't know man..I didn't really have the mood today. So today was just boring. I don't know why but my class seems so free and stuff. I mean its like the teachers are constantly absent and everything. So we have tons of free periods doing nothing(I honestly wonder how our class is going to sit for the coming exams /facepalm). Pure nothing lol. Condolences to my history teacher and her family. Her dad passed away recently :( she hasn't been in school for a week or so now.

I hate the fact that I can't talk with Ivy as much as before :( Duties are getting in the way of everything! Thank God we have tuition together though... Bright side is Xinjie has been chosen as a prefect too! Best news is that she's in the same group as me!!!!(Yes I kinda prayed and hoped for it hehehehe thank you God for answering my prayers~) But still, I miss Ivy :( it's like niggaaaaaa why didn't they choose you?!?!?!?!?!?! I love you anyways so no worries!

So there's this new girl in my class... I don't know why but I just don't like her(yet). I mean, it seems that she's craving for attention acting all cute and shit with her smile pout or whatever that face is(ew ew ew lala alert). AND she is actually getting the attention. I mean like why wouldn't she pfft, she literally has the whole package(white skin, rosy cheeks, nice hair, big eyes, boobs.........., squeaky girly voice, thin body and all that). I don't know I just find it really annoying how all of the boys(and girls) are going gaga over her(especially a certain someone but let's not go there). Ughhhhhh just get over her will you guys(I know, I know, you guys think I'm jealous)(Idk man maybe I am maybe I'm not)(I can't answer that? lol)?

I hate clingy people. I hate people who back stab you or front stab or whatever kind of stab. If you wanna be my friend then do it and mean it. You don't have to go through the trouble of being a fake one then backstabbing me and shit. I mean, do you not have a life? Do you not have something else better to do with your life than invade mine? Seriously, do you need to stoop so low? I just plain hate people sometimes. If you don't like me or w/e then don't. Just move on and go on with your sad life. I'm not some train station or bus stop for you to stop along the way and hang and then just leave whenever you want to ok. Gosh you people are so immature sometimes. Words cannot describe my hate for you lot. And if you like her more then go lah. Go be with her lah. Since she's so ""pretty"" and ""nice"" and has ""boobs"". Go lah. Just leave before my feelings get the hold of me. I am confused ok. It's like one minute you make it seem like you might just like me just a little and the next you don't talk to me and just give me silent treatments. I feel like screaming in your fucking ear asking you to make up your mind. Don't make me feel this way. It's not cool and I don't want to feel this way. I hate having feelings sometimes. Having feelings make everything more complicated and shit. If only I had a way of locking away all my feelings, I would be so much happier...

I have this fear that she is going to take away everything I love from me. Friends and all... I've heard about her. About how good she is... Do you ever feel that way? Its like, its not jealousy, its just this fear of not being good enough. Of being replaced. Yes...replaced... I don't want to be replaced. I love everything I have now(even if they don't know it but I do)(I cherish all of you)(I especially do not want to lose you). I'm already so insecure about myself... Having her around makes everything worse. Sometimes I wish she was never here(I know its a selfish thought but yes I wish). I won't be able to handle being replaced fgfdsgahjkfdasghkl (I might just die)

I guess that's that for this post. Feeling super shitty right now... I miss talking to Ivy. Nigga I need you but you don't reply my texts :( Not to mention at school you always talk to Pris instead of me nowadays D: Shout out to Xinjie lol(I hope what you said about him is true hehehehehe)


, xx

Feeling down

Went to school today to get our exercise books for next year. It was pretty boring actually... Had a really long assembly for I don't even know what. Pretty upset because next year's gonna be hard due to the change of the system in school. They're really dumb to change the co curricular activities to the weekdays. We won't be able to have time for tuition and homework anymore! Not to mention not having enough time for naps :(

Anyway, our class won quite a few hampers from PASCA PMR and we had a little party in the classroom where we opened up most of the hampers we received :D but I didn't get to eat most of it because noone gave me any and i had to watch my weight and diet :(

We ended pretty early today at around 10am, had no where to go after school so we decided to head to Hills shopping mall. Well at first bev, angelina and ivy were with me but then they had to leave to catch a movie....and so there was me. Alone. At hills. I didn't follow them for the movie because they were gonna watch some chinese show which i had absolutely no interest in so yeah. Ended up at hills with hui hui and jordan and the rest. I felt so left out while i was with them....Note to self: don't follow them out anymore. I mean seriously they were all going about their business and i was literally left there sitting alone ranting through twitter. Sucks at the time. So much for being gentlemen, guys. I swear, you'd all fail if there was an exam or something for how well you treat a girl. I mean, I may not be pretty or what ever you call it but I am still a girl. I'm sorry just I'm not your definition of hot/sexy/pretty/what shit.

Truth be told, yes, I get jealous easily but I don't show it. Because getting jealous of someone talking to you when you aren't even mine, it's just not right. I try so hard to be your friend and have a proper conversation with you and all you do is put me off with negative comments. Hurtful comments, like i'm not thin enough, not pretty enough, not tall enough, not fun, mean. You try being in my shoes once in a while. Liking you isn't the best decision i've made. It's probably the worst one. Which is why I want to hate you. Hate you so much that I'll have you out of my face and life forever. I know this may seem mean but it's the only way. I don't want to like a guy who has never, not once, had feelings for me. 


So yes, pretty bad day today. I'm still feeling kinda down because report cards were handed out today and mom kept nagging about how my co curricular activities marks aren't good enough. It's not like i didn't want to go....well yes okay maybe i don't want to go but its because its too boring. If they made it a little more fun maybe it could be better. So don't blame me, blame the school.

Sigh, if only life could be a little better now...Okay, i'm gonna go watch some videos and just go to bed.

You know what?

I actually cannot be stuffed to pack for Damai. As the trip gets closer, I get lazier. I can't be bothered creating a what-to-bring list. Maybe I'll just do some last minute packing on the day. But i have to go out and get the food and stuff i wanna bring :( I'M SO LAZY TO ACTUALLY DO IT. Why can't damai just have a hotline in the room where you can request anything at anytime. That would be so much easier and more convenient but i guess that'll only happen in my dreams.

Jordan asked me to download a couple of games for him to play on my HTC. WHAT IF MY BATTERY GOES FLAT EVEN BEFORE WE REACH DAMAI JORDAN. WHAT IF. I don't want to leave my precious baby in the room to be charged all alone :( what if something happens to it? Maybe I'll just stay in the room till it fully charges :D

Anyway, I skipped school today and basically all i did was

• help mama
• help mama
• watch tv
• help mama
• eat
• help mama

You get the point right? Well I have to stay at home because I couldn't just leave my grandma at home all alone. I'll feel guilty not helping her and leaving her at home. Yes, I am a responsible grandaughter~ hehehe
I write alot on this blog recently and haven't updated tumblr in a while....so maybe i'm just gonna leave this here and update my tumblr~ maybe update my blog later tonight? Yeah...and I think I've got diarrhea or something because my tummy's hurting ;-;

Remember i said i went swimming yesterday?

Yeah now my body hurts like hell after 3 hours of swimming. DAYUMMM. Ok yeah anyways, woke up really early cos the family wanted to go vote early to steer clear of a big crowd. As they say, the early bird always catches the worm. Well no not really i don't even believe it but yeah.

So i struggled to walk all the way in cos basically i hurt everywhere. Even turning my head causes pain UGHHH

Oh and i decided to stay home today to complete my geography project cause if i didn't, i wouldn't have enough time to do so. I still have an essay to think of for the stupid essay writing competition(which i didn't want to go at all but teacher said i couldn't drop out). Not to mention a chinese essay to complete

did i mention i'm not a fan of the chinese subject?

This weekend

Election's tomorrow. Don't know if i'll be going..... Anyway, this weekend is gonna be long! I hope it stays long and never ends. Btw, i cannot wait for APINK's debut! They all so pretty ;-; And i think the first girl in their teaser was the girl from BEAST's beautiful mv. Oh my god they all look like angels ;-;
Anyways, went swimming at Kevin's condo. I like the swimming pool so much, i didn't want to get out of it, but in the end i had to cos it was too hot

Then we bought stuff at the convenient store at the lobby and ate and ate and ate. oh did i mention i am tanned now. REALLY REALLY TANNED. i have a swimsuit line ehehehehhe